For as long as I can remember, I have always said that I wanted to have 3 children. I grew up in a family of 4, but I've always wanted a big family of my own. I thought it would be nice to have 2 girls and a boy. I have a younger brother, but no sisters. Growing up, and even now sometimes, I wish I had a sister. I mean, I wouldn't change my brother for the world, but sometimes I think it would be nice to have a sister. So that's what I've always wanted for my own children.
The plan was, I'd graduate high school, go to college (in the mean time find a boyfriend), graduate college, get married, have babies, and...voila! I would have completed my life's goals. Ha! It obviously didn't go as planned. I never went to college, therefore I didn't graduate college either. I also ended up having a baby before I got married, and gained a stepdaughter in the process. Don't get me wrong, I don't have any regrets, and I'm happy with the way things have worked out.
Aiden is nearly 16 months old, and Jenny is already 4 years old! It's true what they say, time flies when you're having fun! The past 3 years of my life seem as if they have flown by! Especially in the last year and a half. Before I know it, Jenny will be 5 and in kindergarten, and Aiden will be 2! Lately I been thinking a lot about how grown up they are both getting, and I think Jaime has been thinking a lot about it too. He's even mentioned how big Aiden is getting a couple times today, and he's always saying how he can't believe Jenny is already in Pre-K!
All of my thinking about how grown up they are getting, got me thinking about something else....how much I miss being pregnant! Trust me, I don't miss any of the swollen feet, back aches, weight gain, or many other things about it! Luckily, I didn't have any morning sickness when I was pregnant with Aiden, so I can't complain about that. However, I do miss just knowing that I'm pregnant. Knowing that I am carrying a life inside of me. Knowing that I am never alone, even when I am the only person at home. Going to doctor's appointments and seeing Aiden on the sonagram or listening to his heart beat. Being able to feel Aiden move around and kick. Being able to eat whatever I want, and not worry about if it makes me fat cause I'm gonna get fat anyway. I miss all of these wonderful, wonderful things! They were all Blessings that I took for granted when I was pregnant with Aiden.
Sometimes I wish I could start over and be pregnant with Aiden again. I'd take more pictures, I'd keep a journal, I'd make a scrapbook, etc. etc. etc. One of the things I wanted to do most when I was pregnant, was have pictures taken me and my baby belly. I wanted to hire a professional photographer to take photographs of Jaime, Jenny, and I while I was pregnant. I always thought they would be great keepsakes, and look great in a baby book. So the next time I'm pregnant I'm going to try to do better, I'm going to try and treasure that time period more.
All that thinking caused me to really consider talking to Jaime about having another baby. I am still thinking of talking to him about it. I know what he's gonna say. He's gonna say that there are a lot of reasons why right now isn't the right time for us to have another baby. He's gonna say that we can't afford it, and that with him working two jobs now is not the right time. He's gonna remind me of my plans to lose weight. He's gonna try to talk me out of the idea. At least I think he will, I hope at least one of us is thinking rationally right now.
For some reason, no matter how many times I run the cons to having a baby right now through my head, I can't convince myself that it's not what I want. That's why I need to talk to Jaime about this. I know he'll make me see it clearly. Plus, even if I don't see it clearly, all he's gotta do is put his foot down. If Jaime says no baby right now, then it means no baby right now. How else am I gonna have another baby right now without his cooperation? Then again, don't answer that....ha!
So, that's what I'm gonna do tonight after Aiden goes to bed. I'm gonna sit Jaime down, and talk to him about this. I'm gonna explain to him exactly how I feel, and then laugh in agreement when he tells me how unrealistic I'm being. This is definitely something I need to talk to him about. Like I said before, this isn't something I can do on my own. =)
I thought I'd take this oppertunity to tell you a little bit about how the employment situation works around here. You see, I don't work. As you can tell from the title of my blog, I am a stay at home mom (SAHM). I love doing it, but believe me, this was not by choice.
Back in August, Jaime and I both worked for a breakfast restaurant called, International House Of Pancakes (IHOP). I was a served, and he cooked. Originally, we both were working day shift. However, after I came back from maternity leave, I started working night shift. This happened so that I could stay home with Aiden during the day, and Jaime could be with him at night. This meant that Aiden wouldn't have to stay with a babysitter or be put in a daycare. Plus, it wouldn't cost us nearly $200 a week!!
Initally it worked out well. However, once the diapers from our baby shower started running out, and Aiden required more and more formula, things got more difficult financially. The plan was that I would find another job and I would quit working at IHOP. It seemed like a good plan at first, but that also meant that I would have to either find another night shift job, or get a day shift job that would pay me enough so that we could afford daycare.
At that point, the plan changed. We would BOTH start looking for another job. We would both look for night shift jobs. If I found a job first, I would quit IHOP and begin work at the new job. If Jaime found a job first, I would quit IHOP and he would start working two jobs. I was not happy with the second option, but we had to do something. Unfortunetly, Jaime found a job first. He was going to be cooking at an Italian restaurant called Dominicks.
He worked at Dominicks from August 09` until March 2010. He left Dominicks because he found a new job, where he would be making $1.50 more an hour, and would be working more hours. The first part sounded great to me, but I wasn't so happy about the second part. I felt like working more hours would be too hard on him, seeing as how he already worked 12-14 hours a day. In his new job he would be working at a different restaurant, called Cheeky. Cheeky is a Mexican restaurant.
He has been working at Cheeky for about two weeks now. He seems to like it, but sometimes he doesn't get home until after 2am. I'm not happy about him coming home so late, but I feel like it's his decision to make. I'm just happy that we are able to pay our bills and afford a few extras. I do wish that he could spend more time with me and the kids, but if it weren't for him, we wouldn't be able to have kids.
I'm not gonna lie, it does tend to put a strain on our relationship at times. But one thing's for sure, Jaime and I have a very strong relationship. This is just a bump in the road for us in the grand scheme of things. One day, we will both be working day jobs and be able to afford to put Aiden in daycare. Then he and I, and our whole family, will be able to spend the time together that we love and deserve.
Last night I got something I've been needing for a very long time. Peace. Quiet. Relaxation. Time with Jaime. Time away from my kids. Yep, that's right, Jaime and I went out on a much needed date!
Now that we have children and a home, and Jaime has two jobs, we don't get a whole lot of time together. Especially just the two of us. There is always someone else invloved, the kids, friends, our roommate. It's a very rare occurance around here that Jaime and I have the house to ourselves, and can enjoy each other's company.
Last night, after we dropped Jenny off with her mom and Aiden off with his grandma, Jaime and I came back home to an empty house. There was absolutely no one here, and let me tell you, it was great!
We started the night off with a quiet dinner, just the two of us. I made 'American' style tacos. Personally, they are one of my favorite meals. Jaime likes them too, but since he is from Mexico, he says they aren't real tacos. I tell him to shut up and eat. He does what he is told. =) The funny thing is, that even as much as he trash talks my tacos, he eats at least 4 or 5! I'm not kidding when I say at least. Actually, last night it was more like 6 or 7. I guess he was hungry. And after he eats, he proceeds to tell me about how good they were and that he won't talk about my tacos that way again. But I know that it will happen again.
Anyhow, after dinner, like usual I started to clean up the kitchen. You see, I am a firm believer that if I cook, you clean. And if you cook, I'll clean. Jaime seems to disagree. He thinks that I should cook, and clean. Usually it turns into an argument, and it almost turned into one last night too. Until I walked into the living room, and saw him on the computer looking at movie times. He wanted us to go to the movies that night! Of course, I did the next logical thing. I stopped cleaning, and ran upstairs to get ready. Mostly because I needed to get ready, but partly because I knew Jaime wasn't just going to let the mess sit there - which meant he would clean it up.
Jaime and I can never agree on which movie to see. Never ever. So we always end up flipping a coin. He picked 'Shutter Island', and I picked 'Remember Me'. Coin flipped. I won! I love winning. Jaime is a sore loser, but he gets over it.
The movie was a great choice. Especially because it was a Sunday night at 9:00pm, and so we were the only ones in the theatre. I love being the only people in the theatre. You can talk loud, laugh loud, sit wherever you want, throw popcorn at the screen....just kidding about that last one.
Suprisingly though, it really gave Jaime and I time to just be us. The us before kids. The us before the responsibilities of a home and bills and mouths to feed. The us that used to have lots of fun together. The us that I wish we could be more often.
In those few minutes before the movie actually started we were able to get in a pretty deep conversation about things that we normally wouldn't talk about. Things that don't involve the stresses of life or kids. We laughed, we talked, we even flirted. Overall it was a great night.
I didn't even care that the movie wasn't the great. I didn't even seem to notice that Robert Pattinson was on screen right in front of me. All I was paying attention to was Jaime, and the great evening we were having together. I guess that's what marriage is all about when you have kids. Finding the time to go out on dates is important for a marriage. Especially one like ours, where we spend a lot of time apart - Jaime at work and me with the kids. Sometimes in a marriage it is very easy to forget about who you were before you had kids, and before the stresses of life. But sometimes in those few quiet minutes alone, you can really begin to see who you used to be together. And more importantly, learn that you really haven't changed at all.
Starting today, I am going to start holding prayer requests here every Sunday. It will be a place for you all to post any prayer requests you may have, and also for me to tell you about mine.
"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29-11
Here is my prayer request this week....
Please pray for a good friend of mine who has cancer. She has recently lost the use of her legs, and has been given a very grim diagnoses. Bascially, she is down to her last option of chemo. If it works, and shrinks the tumor, she may have 12-18 months to live. If it doesn't work, or makes her too sick, she may only have 2-4 months.
Please pray for her, her name is Lee. I've known her for several years, and I met her when I was working at IHOP. She was my co-worker. She has also been like a mother to David, my roommate. David is like family to us in our house, and because of him, so is Lee. So please keep her in your prayers. We are all just waiting for God's Plan for her to unfold. I'm hoping and praying for a miracle.
God Bless you all, I will pray for you! Just post your requests in the comments. Thanks so much!
Alright, I'll say it...I am 'Twilight' obsessed! I've read all four books, I own the first movie, and I went to see the second one on opening night! And for those of you who don't know...the second movie, New Moon, comes out on DVD TONIGHT AT MIDNIGHT!
I know, I know,... I agree that I am a little too old to be so excited about a stupid movie. Right?...No. You're wrong. I don't care what anyone says, you're never too old to be obsessed with Robert Pattinson (Edward).
Trust me, I don't usually get this excited about a movie. A book? Yes. I will get this excited about a book. But a movie? Not very often. So when I am this excited about a movie coming out, you better move outta` my way! Oh, and let me borrow $20 bucks or so, so that I can purchase said movie (I'm unemployed, remember?) .
Back to my point....I was just wondering if any of you have read the books, or seen the movies? And if you have, what do you think of them? Are you obsessed like me? Or do you absolutely hate them? By the way, if you hate them, then we may have to agree to disagree. Cause like I said, I'm obsessed!
Happy Friday! I hope you are all having a great Friday morning so far! =) Friday is usually a pretty busy day around here. I try to get the house all cleaned up and ready for the weekend. How do you spend your Friday's? Happy Friday Follow everyone!
For any of you who know me personally, you will know that I have always struggled with my weight. Even as a child, I have always been overweight. I've also always had very low self-esteem my entire life, or at least for as long as I can remember. I've always been very insecure about the way I look, especially my weight. Honestly, there isn't really anything that I do like about myself physically. That's the way I've always been, and up until now I have always been ok with being unhappy with myself. Or at least I have been telling myself that I'm ok with it, but I don't think it's possible to be happy about disliking yourself. It couldn't be healthy for me, or for my kids to feel that way.
Lately I've also been really thinking about the way my eating habits and my lack of exercise are effecting my children and their lives. I am showing and teaching them that it is ok for someone to eat unhealthy (almost all the time), and to not exercise. My biggest downfall is probably that I don't hardly ever drink water. I'll be honest, just about the only time I EVER drink water is if I am either taking a medication with it, or if we are out of anything else to drink. Literally. I will choose to drink milk before I will choose water. Blogging about it is making my unhealthy lifestyle even more real to me right now.
In the past I have tried 'dieting', and I have even done pretty well at time times. But most of the time, I come up with an excuse as to why I can't heat healthy (I can't afford it, I don't know how to cook like that, etc.) and as to why I can't excercise (I don't have the time, What am I going to do with Aiden?, etc.). So, this time, I'm not going to go on any 'diet', I'm not going to stress about calorie counting, I'm not going to worry about how many calories I burn in a day.
But what I am going to do is make a promise. A promise to myself, and to my children. And that promise is that I am going to be healthier. I am going to do my best to eat healthier, and exercise more. I can't say that I am going to completely cut everything unhealthy out of my diet, and there may be days when I don't exercise. But I'm not going to stress myelf out about it. In the past when I've 'dieted', I've always stressed out about it. Which has always led to me giving up and just returning to my normal lifestyle. So I'm not even going to call this change in my life a 'diet'. I am going to call it my wellness plan. Dieting makes it sound too much like it's all about losing weight, but for me it's more than that. I'm just trying to be healthy. It doesn't matter how much weight I lose (even though I'm sure I will lose weight), all that matters is that I am healthy, and that I am teaching my kids to be healthy too.
So, please wish me luck! I know I will need it, as I am hoping this will be life changing for me and my family. I am interested in hearing any suggestions that you all may have for me, so please comment your suggestions! Thanks so much. I am going to try to post weekly updates of my plan and how it is progressing. So stay tuned. =)
Happy St. Patricks Day everyone! I hope you are all wearing green today! Honestly, I'm still in pajamas. And no, they aren't green. Luckily though, it's just Aiden and I at home right now. Trust me, he can pinch (hard too!), but he's still too little to know that he should be pinching me right now. =)
So today I was reading Bizzi Mommi's Blog, and was reading her post about The Sunshine Award. Basically, she was telling her story about receiving the award. The whole time I was reading I kept thinking about how nice it would be to have a blog worthy of receiving an award. THEN I get to the bottom of the first paragraph of her post, and GUESS WHAT?!? She passed the award on to me!
Let me just say that I never expected to get an award for this blog in a million years! I do this more as a hobby that I do for anything else. But of course, it is always nice to be recognized and rewarded at the same time. =)
Here are the rules for accepting this award.....
Put the logo on your blog or within your post.
Pass the award onto 12 bloggers.
Link to the nominees within the post.
Let them know they received this award by commenting on their post.
Share the love & link to the person from whom you received this award.
I just wanted to let you all know about the giveaway going on at Bizzi Mommi's Blog. She is giving away a set of 6 children's books! Yep, that's right, I said 6!! They are from the The Waussie Book Collection.
The books in the collection include....
Boomerang Waussie to the Rescue
Burger Waussie's Lost Bun
Hiccup Waussie Loses His Hiccups
Beachball Waussie's Lost Air Stopper
Pineapple Waussie's Tickly Problem
Tennis Raquet Waussie's Space Adventure
The books are written and illustrated by Jacqui Taub. They are full of colorful illustrations, and each book even comes with an audio reading on CD!
The giveaway ends 3/31 and is open to U.S. Residents only. For more information about the books and how to enter please visit the Bizzi Mommi's Blog via the link below.
Ah, I see you've come to visit me again. In the past when you've come to visit, I didn't mind you so badly. You see, that was before I was a stay at home mom, and Jaime was always home when you stopped by to help entertain you. But now that I am a stay at home mom, and it is my responsibility to care for and entertain guests, I just wanted to let you know that I am really getting tired of you coming over. You see, Laundry, you always seem to stay too long, you don't clean up after yourself, and overall you make me sick! Honestly, it wouldn't hurt my feelings if you never came here again. But, since I know you will come back, because you always do, I'm going to ask a favor of you. The next time you come, can you please bring some friends to take care of you while you're here? That would help me out a lot, actually it would take several loads off of my back. I'd appreciate it more that you'll ever know. Oh, and by the way, try not to come back for a long time, I've seen too much of you lately. Thanks ever so much!
Yep! You guessed it. Today was laundry day at my house. Actually, 'laundry day at my house' makes it sound like it was a group effort. Like maybe someone helped me seperate the clothes, or fold them and put them away. So, let me rephrase that....today I did laundry, and do you know you helped me?? NOBODY! Yep, that's right...I did loads and loads of laundry today, and I had to do it all by myself. Now, don't get me wrong, I usually do have the laundry all by myself. But today for some reason, it just seemed neverending. It was like the 'Neverending Pile of Laundry'. I could have wrote a book or made a movie out of it. Actually, no. I don't think anyone wants to see me or read about me doing laundry, I'm sure you all have enough of it yourselves. So, tell me....do you have any tips for getting it all done? I am the world's worst when it comes to laundry. Give me anything else to do, but PLEASE don't give me laundry!
A little tour of my laundry room (in case you're bored or something)....
I'd also like to let my readers know, that in honor of the two year anniversary, they are hosting a GIVEAWAY! That's right, I said giveaway. =) If you'd like to enter to win this monogrammed market tote, all you need to do is comment on their blog post.
Isn't it the cutest?? I've already entered, and I hope you will too! It would be a great tote for anything really, picnics, grocery shopping, potlucks, etc. The giveaway ends Sunday at 7pm and the winner will be announced on Monday. So, start entering people!
Yay! Jenny's back home! She has been at her mom's house this week, and has been gone since Sunday. The shared schedule between Jaime and Jenny's mother changed recently, and now she is spending one full week here with us, and one full week at her mom's. Before she was staying with her mom Monday-Thursday, and then she would be with us Thursday (after school) - Monday (before school). The schedule changed so that she wouldn't be changing homes in the middle of the week.
So far I guess this new schedule isn't that bad. Trust me, it's not easy to go a whole week without seeing her pretty little face or hearing her laugh. But we know it's better for her this way, and we will all just have to adjust. But I will say that it's also really great when she comes back and you know that she will be here ALL week! I know my mind starts racing with all of the possible things we can do: go to the park, makeovers, baking, watch movies, have girl's nights, the possibilities are endless!
Since Jenny doesn't get to be here all the time, I try to make sure we do lots of things while she is here. I try to make sure that we bake or cook something at least once during the time she's here, and on Friday's she and I stay up late and watch a movie and eat popcorn. I also try to make sure that she and Aiden get lots of time to play together. Jenny is a great big sister, and you can really see a bond between them!
The thing that upsets me most about her being gone a whole week, is that I can see how much it bothers Aiden. He has gotten used to her going to her mom's and being gone for a few days, but after 3 or 4 days he really starts to notice she's been gone too long. He has been walking around the house for at least 2 days now asking for Jenny. If someone says her name for any reason, Aiden starts to look for her. It is really pitiful. Although, the look on their faces today when they saw each other was incredible! For the first few minutes all Aiden could do was stare at her with a huge grin on his face. After those few minutes passed though, they were glued to each other! It was really great to see how happy they were to see each other. I know as they get older that they will be just like any other siblings and have their fair share of fights, arguments, etc. But I can already see that they will always have a bond, and when they are adults I know they will be great friends!
Sunday nights are family nights at our house. Tonight Jaime and I made hamburgers, and fried green onions. While we cooked the kids played with their new bouncy balls they got tonight at the grocery store. Then we sat down and had a really great time just eating together and being a family. After dinner it was bath time, and then bed time. Bath time is probably my favorite time of day. Aiden is ALWAYS making me laugh, especially when Jenny is here. Then they both make me laugh! Tonight they seemed to be extra entertaining, maybe because they have been away from each other for longer than usual. I'm not sure, but they sure were funny! Nights like tonight make me feel proud of my family, and really happy to be a part of it. I am definitely blessed in more ways than I can count, and for that I am grateful. =)
I hope you all had a great Sunday, and a great weekend! I have a doctor's appointment in the morning with the general surgeon who removed my gallbladder. Tomorrow will have been one week since the surgery. I'm assuming he is just going to take a look at the stitches and ask me how I'm feeling. I'll let y'all know about how it goes. Until then....goodnight! God Bless.
Hello everyone. Earlier tonight I received an email from the husband of a dear friend of mine. You see, my friend has been fighting lung cancer for several months, and she has been losing the battle very quickly. Tonight's email was the worst so far. Recently, the cancer clipped her spine and has pressed against it so badly that more than likely she will never walk again. At this point there is only one option left. Another round of a different type of chemo. If she chooses to receive treatment they estimate that she has 12-18 months to live, without treatment they estimate 2-4. It is a very sad situation. At this point all we can do for her is pray for a miracle from God. That is what I am doing, and that is what I am asking for you to do as well. Please.
She has chose to fight the cancer and start the next round of treatment. I knew that's what she would choose. She has a son and a husband. If it were me, I would choose to fight too. Her cancer has come on so quickly, and the diagnosis keeps getting worse and worse. She's not ready to die, and she's not ready to give up. And I'm not ready to give up on her. And I know God will not give up on her either.
Ahhh Saturday! I love weekends, don't you? They are so relaxing and comforting. They just make a person feel good! They must be good for something, otherwise we wouldn't look forward to them all week.
Before I became a stay at home mom, I always had jobs that required me to work the weekends. That's because the only 3 jobs I've ever had were, a cashier, a kennel technichian at an animal hospital, and a waitress. All 3 places are busiest on weekends. At the animal hospital I was the one who fed and cared for the animals boarding in the kennel, so I had to at least go in for a few hours on the weekends to feed, water, and let the animals potty.
Now that I'm a stay at home mom though, weekends have become more important. Our weekends are usually about the same each week. Up until this week I've always had to care for Aiden and Jenny both. This week however, Jenny is with her mom so she isn't here this weekend. It's really quiet around here without her. But usually Aiden is the first to wake up, usually around 8:00am. Then of course, I get up. Aiden and I come downstairs and I change his diaper, but I usually don't change his clothes until after breakfast. I put on a pot of coffee and start breakfast. On the Saturday breakfast could be anything: a bowl of cereal, a Poptart, eggs and bacon, pancakes, etc. Whatever I make depends on how much sleep I got the night before. =) Once breakfast is ready it is usually getting close to 9:00am, and I will go upstairs to wake up Jenny. If I didn't wake her up she'd probably sleep till noon! Seriously. Then we eat breakfast. After breakfast, we all get dressed and ready to start the day.
Our day usually consists of lots of playing, going outside if the weather is nice, and most of the time we go to Grandma's house. Since Aiden spends Friday night's with Grandma a lot, on Saturdays I have to go pick him up. So we usually stay there a while and visit with my mom and dad. Actually, we are usually there until around 9:00pm, and maybe even a little later. Then we come home and I put Aiden to bed. On Saturday nights I let Jenny stay up until her daddy comes home from work. They enjoy the extra time together.
Sundays we get up early and go to church. On Sunday breakfast is always a bowl of cereal or Poptarts. That's mostly because we are usually running late on Sunday, and we have to leave for church at 10:00am. It takes about 30 minutes to get there, and then I have to take the kids in to their classrooms. It's a lot of work when I'm by myself! After church we come home, eat lunch, and the kids take an afternoon nap. During naptime I work on laundry and clean the house. After naptime it's almost time for Jaime to come home from work. Once he gets home I start dinner. We eat, and then after dinner we try to do something as a family. Sometimes we play a board game, or we bake a special dessert, and if the weather is nice we will go to the park. Bedtime for the kids is at 9:00pm. I use the time afterwards to watch tv or a movie with Jaime, check emails, get on Facebook, and blog.
Well, that's usually what we do on the weekends. Are your weekends similar to mine? What do you do on the weekends?
Today at Kelly's Korner, Kelly is hosting "Show Us Your Life - Favorite Charities".
I am so happy to be able to tell you about my favorite charities. I am so excited to share with you the joy it brings me to give to charities and non-profit organizations. It's always been a big passion of mine to give to people who need it. Growing up my parents were always donating to charities, and always giving us their spare change so we could 'donate' as well.
I have two charities that I feel most passionate about. One of them is Compassion International and the other is the Muscular Dystrophy Association (MDA). I try to give to both of them on a regular basis, and we always give as much as we can. Usually we give at once a month, and more often if we can.
Compassion is a Christian orginization that helps to take care of children in extreme poverty from 26 different countries. These countries include: Africa, Asia, South America, The Carribean, and Central America. Compassion does a lot of things for people like: training mothers in a field that will help them provide for their family, teach mothers how to care for their children, they have a malaria intervention team, and they partner with churches to provide a safe place for children. Most importantly (I think), they allow people to sponsor children. Child sponsorship is only $38.00 a month. You can find more information about child sponsorship and the Compassion International orginization on their website.
I found out about the MDA when I was working at Kroger several years ago. Every March we would sell paper shamrocks that were purchased as donations for the MDA. You could buy them for $1 or $5. Back then I would try to buy a $1 everday, and a $5 one on Fridays (pay day). Once I graduated high school and got a real job, I began donating as much as I could each month. MDA is a non-profit health agency dedicated to curing muscular dystrophy, ALS and related diseases by funding worldwide research. The Association also provides comprehensive health care and support services, advocacy, and education. Since the Association's earliest days, it has been energized by its number-one volunteer and national chairman, entertainer, Jerry Lewis.
We also are very passionate about our church and giving in the tithe. We tithe and try to give as much of ourselves as we can. We believe that everything we are and everything we have is because of Him. So we tithe to worship and glorify Him. I have not always given in the tithe, and I can't always give as much as I'd like. But I can say that for me, it's not so much about the monetary gift, as it is about putting your faith and trust in Him.
There are TONS of charities out there, and I would LOVE to be able to give to them all. Unfortunetly, I can't do that. I do try to give as much as I can, and I hope that one day I can give to even more charities.
Wow! What a day! I'd have to say that day 3 of recovery has been the hardest thus far. Since I've been home from the hospital, I've really been taking it easy. Aiden has been staying with my mom most of the time, and Jaime has been home with me. So, I don't really have to do anything. Except just sit on the couch, and watch Jaime do all of the things I'd normally be doing (and I might critique him a little bit). =)
However today I thought I'd be brave and go out of the house! Don't worry, I didn't get too crazy. I just went to my mom's for a few hours. It was my first time driving since the surgery, and it felt great! I've always loved being able to just get up and go. Once I had Aiden, it got a little more difficult. It was more like, get up, pack the diaper bag, change Aiden's diaper, put on Aiden's shoes and jacket, and GO! But this week there has been no get up and do anything really. So today, when I got the chance to get out of the house, I jumped at the oppertunity!
By the time I came home, Jaime was already home from work. So I brought Aiden home with me since Jaime would be here to help me with him. While he was here we went to find the new restaurant that Jaime starts working at tomorrow, and we had to go grocery shopping. The car ride wasn't that bad, but it did take us over and hour to get to the new restaurant because traffic was so bad. So that meant it took us an hour to get back too. I was not a very happy camper. So, on the way back, we stopped at Zaxby's because at that point Aiden and I were having mood swings from food withdrawls. After we ate we were feeling much better.
Let me just say that I will NEVER take Jaime grocery shopping with me again. Apparently he hasn't been grocery shopping in the last 10 years, because he said something about the price of EVERYTHING in the store. Even when I got excited about how the frozen vegetables I usually buy were on sale for nearly a dollar less than usual, it was still too expensive for him. His jaw nearly dropped when we got to the register and the total was $188.64. I didn't tell him that that's actually less than I usually spend, I didn't think he needed to know that little tid-bit.
Aiden is spending the night at our house tonight since it took us so long to run errends. By the time we got home it was past his bed time. So I told my mom I would keep him tonight and she could come get him in the morning. Plus I'm sure Aiden will enjoy sleeping in his own bed tonight, and I'll enjoy knowing that he's here.
So now here I am. Sitting at home. Sore. Tired. Ready for bed. Overall it was a good day, but tomorrow I'm gonna take things slow and sit on the couch. Sitting on the couch is nice, I'm not ready for things to be completely normal again. I'm still enjoying my 'vacation'. I am glad that Aiden is here though, I've missed him. Goodnight.
I don't have any pictures for this post. I didn't take any today. I'll see what I can find to take pictures of tomorrow though. Maybe tomorrow will be more picture worthy. =)
Aiden has been staying with his Grandma this week while I recover from my surgery. So far he has been gone since Sunday night, so he's been gone four nights in a row. Don't get me wrong, Aiden still comes over during the day. He has been here for about four hours a day, everyday since I've come home from the hospital.
But it's just not the same. I can't pick him up and squeeze him, and hug him, and kiss him, and just LOVE him! I miss him. I can't wait until I can give him a bath and we can splash and play together. I can't wait until I can dry off his little booty and put lotion on it. I can't wait until I can rock him to sleep and put him in his bed. I can't wait until things go back to normal. I miss him.
I think he can sense that something isn't right. He knows that there is a reason that I'm not picking him up and doing all the same things with him I usually do. That makes me feel better. I'm glad that he can sense it, and almost understand, why things have been different this week. Otherwise, I would be putting myself on the list of 'dead-beat mothers'.
I know he understands because when I show him the bandages on my stomach he will try to touch them. But he is very gentle, and he will rest his head on my belly and say 'Awww'. So, I know he understands. I've also explained to him that his, 'mommy has boo-boos', and that, 'she is hurt'. So now when you ask him, 'Aiden, where is your boo-boo?'. He'll point to his belly and say, 'boo-boo'. So I know he understands.
Even though it makes me feel better to know that he understands, I still miss him like crazy.
I don't have much to report today. So far there hasn't been a big change from yesterday. Other than the fact that I took a shower last night and removed my bandages. I still have tape covering my stitches, and I can see that there is a lot of bruising around the places where the inscisions were made. I think that is where most of my pain is coming from.
Monday night when I was laying in bed and trying to go to sleep I had a lot of pain in my shoulder. They said shoulder pain was normal after this type of surgery because they used a harmless gas to inflate my stomach. They told me to expect pain in my shoulder for up to 48 hours after surgery, and it was caused by the process of the gas leaving my body. However, whenever I laid down to sleep, the pain was almost unbearable. So, last night I thought I would take two pain pills instead of one before I went to bed. I took the pills around 9:00pm, and by 9:30pm I was passed out asleep on the couch! I woke up around midnight and took myself upstairs and went to sleep in my bed. Obviously the medication helped, because I haven't slept as well as I did last night probably since before Aiden was born! Ha! I'm not sure if I'll do the same thing tonight or not, I want to wait and see if I still have the shoulder pain first.
So far the hardest part of my recovery has been not being able to pick up Aiden. He has been staying with my mom the past few days while I recover. She brings him over during the day when Jaime is home so that she can get a break and so that I get to spend a little time with him. It's just difficult for me not to have him here everyday and get to give him baths, play with him, and put him to bed. I know it's best that he's not here a lot right now because I'm not supposed to lift him, but I sure do miss my baby! I think he misses me too, and I'm sure he's getting a little homesick. My mom said that he walks around saying 'mama' a lot and that he'll walk from door to door saying 'bye-bye'. My poor little man! Hopefully I'll be more able to care for him by the weekend.
I'd also like to say that I have the best family and friends in the world! They are all trying their hardest to care for me and Aiden during this time. I couldn't ask for better people in my life! They are always there when I need them most! I love them! Thank you all for your help! =)
So, I have been home nearly a full 24 hours since my surgery yesterday. For those of you who don't know, I had to have my gallbladder removed. I had been having stomach pains about a month ago, and after a CT Scan, it showed that I had a 2.5cm gallstone. Rather than just removing the stone, they just took out the whole gallbladder. I'm assuming that is so this problem doesn't reoccur.
Anyhow, the surgery itself took about 45 minutes. I was released from the hospital about 4 hours after the surgery had ended. Before I could leave the hospital, I had to be able to hold down a little bit of food, use the bathroom, and get up and walk around for five minutes. Once I was able to do all of those things, I was released.
I have been taking my pain medication every 3-4 hours. The doctors reccomended that I didn't wait until I had pain to take the medication, they reccomended that I take the medication so that I remained pain free for at least the first 48-72 hours. Ironically, most of the pain that I have had has been in my right shoulder. They said that was normal, and is caused by the gas they used to inflate my stomach during the surgery. I also have to take a self-injected blood thinner to prevent blood clots. I have to inject it into my abdomen once a day for three days. I am not happy at all about having to do it myself, but the doctors insisted that it was the best way. It was also suggested that I walk as much as possible. I am not supposed to lift anything over 5lbs for at least the first week, and after that my doctor will let me know if I can resume regular lifting. The walking also helps to release the gas used to inflate my abdomen, and helps to relieve any shoulder pain I have.
So far the hardest part has been resisting the urge to hold Aiden. This week he is spending the night with my mom, and then during the day either she or Jaime will stay with me. This way I don't have to do any heavy lifting, and I can spend a good amount of time resting and healing. It's just difficult to keep from picking Aiden up because I am so used to being able to hold him whenever I want. It's also hard not to pick him up when I know he wants me to hold him. I think he can sense that there is something different about me. He's not sure what it is exactly, but he seems aware that I am sore and unable to hold him. Earlier today I showed him the bandages on my stomach. I tried to explain that I have boo-boos on my belly. He seemed to understand, and when he tried to touch the bandages he was very gentle, and kept saying 'awww' and trying to hug me.
I am allowed to take my first post-surgery shower this afternoon. I am also supposed to remove the bandages when I shower. So, we'll see how that goes. I am kind of excited to see what it looks like underneath the bandages. I'll try to update as much as I can. Thank you all for your prayers and support!
Hello! Welcome to my brand spankin` new blog! This is actually my second blog - my first is more like a family journal, this one is going to be just for me and what I do. =) So, let me start this first post by telling you about myself and my life:
My name is Katie, and I am 22 years old. I was born and raised here in Lawrenceville, Georgia. I am not married, but I am in a commited relationship with a man named Jaime. He is from Mexico. =) He has a 4 year old little girl named Jennifer. Although Jaime and I technically aren't married, I consider her my stepdaughter. Together, Jaime and I have a 15 month old little boy named Aiden. I am currently unemployed, and Jaime works two jobs. It's not always the best arrangement, but it is working for us right now.
I think those are the basics. There's not much else to tell, and the rest you will figure out in my posts later on. I am always open to hearing from you, so please leave me comments. If this blog becomes more successful, I will eventually create an email address for you all to contact me. Thanks so much!
Jenny is 4 years old. Right now she enjoys going to school, watching Spongebob Squarepants, and family game nights! She is a very helpful, and is a great big sister! She is always trying to watch out for Aiden and take care of him. She is a very smart little girl!
Aiden turned 1 on November 29, 2009. His favorite things to do include: climbing, dancing, playing with his big sister, and being outside! He is always trying to make everyone laugh, and he's very sneaky!